Anne Graham Lotz says over and over and over and over “Just Give Me Jesus!”
I keep trying to get “into” that book and I just don’t connect with it. I thought it was about the enemy keeping me from her precious words. I don’t think so, though. I think the “fix” I’m looking for is not about what I need to “do”. I think THAT is exactly my problem!!! I get all caught up in what I need to be doing “works” if you will, andmy focus is shifted back to me and what I do and don’t do. Therein lies my problem.
I don’t think I need to DO A.N.Y.T.H.I.N.G. but love Jesus and focus on Him. HE has to make the spiritual transformation happen. If I focus on Him, all those things I tell myself I need to be doing will start showing up. If I look at people and events through Jesus-lens instead of Kym-lens, it will happen. I know it will. It has to! He has to be the strength and power in my life, because I can’t!
And at night when I do my inventory (10th step for us alkies) I see where I failed and ask HIM to help me be more focused on HIM, more like HIM, more broken and submitted to HIM and HIS will. That certainly doesn’t relieve us of responsibility for our actions, I still have to confess and repent. But I don’t think that repenting doesn’t mean I need to line out a new set of actions for myself – because I have proven for many years that my actions don’t work. I have to submit to Him. “…and all other things will be added unto you”. My actions and reactions to other people will be in obedience, if my constant focus is Jesus.
Whew – no small task, that.
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